I want to celebrate color because as a child I was
taught differently.
I was taught to obey a white God who wore white
garments and resided in a white heaven with
white angels. I was taught that upon my first "holy
communion," I would wear a white dress and white
veil -and share in the "white" bread, the body and life
of Christ (white son of God).
Elders told me that those who did not believe in the
words of the white God or who were not Christians -
would burn in a fiery place called "hell" with a red
chimera (half-animal, half-man) wearing black
hair and known as "the Devil."
Somewhere in the puzzled but genuine recesses of
my young mind, I could not believe in "the Devil," the
fiery place called "hell," or that indigenous peoples
living in remote areas of the world and participating
in different cultures and religions - were bad.
As a child, I was also made aware that clothing with
multiple colors was unattractive. Because I grew up
in a town with a substantial Puerto Rican (culturally
rich in color) community - anyone wearing multiple
colors was disparagingly referred to as wearing
"Puerto Rican colors." Wearing colorful or
multi-colored clothing was unacceptable.
When I grew up, the de-colorization of my life
continued. The wedding dress envied by every
young bride was purely white. Even my birth
certificate said I was white (I am full Mexican)!
I grew up some more and after much education and
willingness to understand, I began to see myself
and colors in a different perspective. I saw that the
art and culture of my ancestors was rich in multiple
colors - and I saw for the first time that multiple
colors and people of color were indeed beautiful -
very beautiful!
| 2001 | Susan Carreon
University of Utah
zorrah@att.net
Salt Lake City, Utah |
